The happy and sad days..

Assalamualaikum..

Now.. I'm waiting for the pictures to be uploaded. I didnt get the chance to take much pictures during our recent trip to bludan. Our hands were freezing that we just hate to take out our cameras. >.< It's too few.. that.. u can just view it on my Friendster.

When Fathanah arrived, she lost three of her family. and I've lost One.. And now I understand the feeling and whatever that she has to go through. It's abit frustrating.. and the whole of that day.. I was frowning, after cyring in front of the washing machine and behind the refrigerator.
After that shocking call from my dad.. I now have this fear of answering any call from Singapore, hate to hear the similar news. Insya'Allah everyone would be alright. I know i cannot control death.. and everyone DIES. but the thought that I can't see them for the last time.. make me feel so hopeless.


argh! forget about those things.. (arh well.. it's not like I can put it aside.. especially after reading my sister's depressing blog.. =.= )


We had another trip to Bludan last two days.. which was exactly when it was snowing heavily. Hahhaha.. the reaction of the girls could shake the whole of rukndin. All the girls were practically screaming of joy as the snow was falling. It was one of our biggest grace to witness the snow.. and I was on my way to the cyberbcafe. Subhanallah.. cold it was.. but the excitement that was burning in us gave us the energy to go to bludan IMMEDIETLY.
khehhehehehhe!

The sad thing was that.. we didnt really know where we were. hahha.. and it SUPER slippery ( well at least for me.. ). I crawled and slided a few times. haha.. It was fun though.. coz the fall was so sudden that even you're on the ground you'd still be thinking.. "HEy.. did I just fall?"

The MOST IdIotic part was that.. we bought a lot of food to bring along.. but when we were about to eat.. there was only one bag of Muhammarah in my bag.. and the rest was.. left at HOME. can't be anymore stupid-er than that.. =.= but Alahamdulillah.. we werent that hungry at that time.. so we werent really searching for food that bad.

This time round we played alot and screamed alot as well. Plus someone put snow and mud in my mouth.. =.= yeah thanks.. now I know the taste of mud when I die someday. Fathanah was even worse.. she got snow and a small pebble in her mouth!! hahahha.. poor us..

ok.. to be continued.. Fathanah is here.. and we're going to look for khazanah..

bye!!

a kind of pain is squeezing inside me right now..

a kind of bitter feeling is taking over me.. which i'm trying to control.

no wonder I've been feeling different and been thinking of her..

no wonder I have this bloody urge to call home every now and then..

I have cried it out..

and I wish I could do more to release me from this pain..

but I think I should time a chance to heal me..

Insya'Allah..


now She's no longer around..

somewhere near The Grace of God.. Insya'Allah.

Fatihah to her..

and I miss her.

I told her that I'll see her this year..

Indeed..

I could only plan.. But God decides it all.

Aku redha Ya Allah.. dengan segala Nikmat dan Ujian ujian mu. Aku redha..

did you see how time flies..??

Assalamualaikum..

^.^ I intended to call hoe tonight, but I think it's abit too late already. haha.. anyway, I have realised some great things in these last few weeks.

firstly.. I've turned Twenty! and Gosh.. I feel so old. I can still recall the time when I was 10 and I wondered if I could live to 20.. and Now.. I'm wondering If I could live to forty! hahah..

TUEENYEEEE aKKUuuUu!!! haix... but I can't help it. Insya'Allah this year with the increasing of my age.. It'll grant me more opportunities to do more good and be more like a lady.. >.< Insya'Allah a strong lady..
I've been so tired these weeks.. and Fathanah is my witness. She finally sees with her own eyes how crazy my every day is. hahah.. I now consider myself a Robot that has blood and veins. I just need to be recharged with 5 hours of sleep with three meals a day (at least). In any case.. now I'm sooo used to being busy all the time, I dont what to do when I'm free. REally.. i Really pity my RoomAtes and housemates.. coz my hyperactive-ness would take over me when I'm free. I'll be talking and making noise non stop.. even if it means talking to myself. Yeah.. A lunatic u'd call it.. but once I start.. i dont know how to stop. But i've warned them of this.. so.. Insya'Allah they can stand me. Hahahhaha! (they HAVE TO.. )

the second thing is that, I've been away from Singapore, Macdonalds, MCspicy, French fries, MRT, SBS Buses, Ezlink, Eunos Interchange and Eunos Blk 14.. for half a year already!! and still it doesnt feel that long.
BUt when I look at it in the other way.. as in..
I've been away from my family and friends.. and.. well... some of the roads in singapore.. It FEELS SO LONG AND SO BAD!! ARGH!!.
so.. if i turn my thoughts to the first one.. I can still tell myself that I can stay for another a year, But when It comes to the second thought........................... ARGH!! IT MAKES ME WANT TO PACK UP AND FLY HOME!...

T.T yeah.. I miss them.. not alot.. not very much.. I miss themTERRIBLY!.. Allah knows how bad it is. arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. I have alot to say and tell.. of which if told by the phone.. or online chatting wont be fun!.. I have to look at them and they'd have to see my facial expressions! BUT HOW??????.. webcam isnt.. enough actually. I can only see how fat or slim they've changed.. but.. cant feel the emotions... right? haixxx..

the purpose of my typing in this entry.. is to tell two of my experience of which the first one has made me notoriously known at the dar hadith.. and the the second one has taught me to appreciate ALL the things that I have in Singapore. Allah is most gracious to make me a Singaporean.. and He knows why I have to come here. It is the most important subject in life that I've missed.. which was.. 'BE THANKFUL WITH ALL THE THINGS THAT HAS BEEN PROVIDED'.

sadly though I'm not in the mood to type in the details NOW.. khhehhe..
Kita akan bersambung selepas ini.. (Tak tau bile arh tp..tunggu je, bile mood de dtg nak bercerite.. siap arh telinge korang)

arh.. all tired now. hahah.. Bye!!
FI AMANILLAH! mUACKS!

a time to remember

Assalamualaikum..

yohaa.. how are all of you doing?

Today is a special report on Bludan Trip Yesterday!.

Bludan is the place where we go for SNOWY-FUN! khehehehhe!! yeah.. I saw and WITNESSED REAL HARD COLD SNOW IN FRONT OF MY EYES YESTERDAY!

Masya'Allah... what a feeling it was. ^_^



the journey is quite far though.. but it was all worth it, even when the snow wasnt that much. They are on the way down I assumed. ^^

we went as top as possible and there were just US!

we screamed and shouted our lungs out! khehhe..

firstly what we did upon arrival was... EAT!! All of us just couldnt stand it.. we just had to have our lunch and recharge our energy. hahha.. potato sanwiches and some choc chips did it all.

thus.. start our first game!.. which was SNOW FIGHT!!

two teams against each other. it was soooooooooooooooooooo cold to make snowballs.. but who cares. hahah..

amidst our fight..

suddenly Shahirah said: "Ade permintaan arh.."

everyone went quiet. I assumed everyone else know what was it.. except for me. My mind went blank.. I was like.. "huh?? arent we still fighting?"

a few seconds before anyone reacted.. An idea stuck me..

"Am I going to be sabo-ed?"

which was TRUE!.. that idea came late... that before I could move my feet.. someone grabbed me and all the other girls spread snow all ver my face and body. DARN IT WAS COLD!..

I still managed to stay on the ground as I defended myself.. then someone said..

"JaTOHKAN DIE!! KASI DIE JATOH..."

arh.. and i was immedietly pushed to the ground. Actually with the energy I had.. I could just topple the one who grabbed me in the first place.. and fight my way out from the crazy girls... but.. how can I spoil the fun they were having.

and just for and extra info...

my birthday is still one week ahead. HMPH!!


when they had finally stopped..

I got up and tried to look..

and GOSh.. there came Mardhiah and her camera..

'KACCHEEKk"!!

I was already screaming during the process of sabo-ing, but when the camera was flashed on me.. i went..

"aAAAAAAHH!! BIRTHDAY KU MINGGU DPN!! KENAPE SKRG!!"

and the rest was singging the Advanced birthday song



then it was getting dark.. and we decided our fun ends there.

the way down was.. well.. very very steep and slippery.

hahahhaha!!

anyway.. it was an experience of a lifetime. Insya'Allah we'll go again the near future.! kheheh


till then..

ma'assalamah.. fi amanillah!