When days pass by so fast..

Assalamualaikum..

It's my last day teaching today. How sad for me to leave though.. Now.. just for Now.. I hope that this week wont end. I want to still see them. Putting aside my tiredness, I still do want to talk and shout and tell stories to them. Time flies... and I thought that such a day wont come.. but it did and I have to accept it.

Ma'Asalamah Kids.. Be Good to each other and to your teachers. (as if they'll be reading this..)

Thus, That ends my entry today.

Ila Liqa!~ Fi Amanillah...

Dong Feng Po (East Wind Breaks)

Assalamualaikum..

Alright, That title came from One of Jay Chou's song, and I hope The ones in the bracket id correct. hahha.. It's a soft and soothing song.

The afternoon session was abit hectic, I almost couldnt believe it that I'd be asked to attend both testing and the Madrasah Class. It's not that I'm complaining.. no no.. definately not. I'm just thinking that it's so rare.. that I almost lost of what I was supposed to do. But at some point of time help came in, by the young boss. Hahhah.. Thanks. I was going crazy at that time.

One of the teacher asked me: "Who's next for phonics??"
The super blurred Zahidah: "Qu-eh" (the Q sound)

That was how blur and mixed up I was. Hahhaha.. But it was a test of my limit as well. Anyway, it was a great try and I think I'd know how to handle a class and a testing next time. ^^ even without help.. I guess.

I have to learn how to work hard and Do HARD tasks sometimes.. you know.

Alright, yesterday we went out together, Finally. I was abit off mood because of.. well.. the usual thing: LATE COMERS. Haixxx.. I dont know if I am really understanding or not. Or could it be just me.. or just them. Haixx.. anyway, the bowling alley had a tournament and we had to wait for an hour or more. Of course, immedietly.. I said: NO!
Argh... we went to marina square next, with a large hope that the bowling alley over there would have space for us, but our hope was dashed and we ended up just eating lunch.

I brought my primary 6 diary along too.. because I had found an INTERESTING biodata of KAi. Hahhahah.. 'Sejarah Khairiyah', was the title. How AMUSING it was. That diary is 7 years old already. hmmm.. I didnt know I keep all these things.


AHHHH.. I am SO tired. Only left FOUR more days for me to work in Tuffahah. Hmm.. I will miss the place alot! even though I havent worked there for along time... but I feel so attached to the place already, but I dont know how I will be missed by the place and the people over there.

Alright then, That's it..

Ila Huna.. Fi amanillah.

Dong Feng Po (East Wind Breaks)

ShorT TrIp!

Assalamualaikum..

Last week I went to KL to find things that I need, before I depart. This can be considered as my last trip with my Family before I go off Insya'Allah.. and well.. not too sure when will return. KL was good and I found most of the things that I need.. Alhamdulillah..and we're back safe and sound. Let's reminise that trip from these pictures..















Ummi and Basirah 'enjoying' the journey on the Train. Time: Somewhere after subuh.















That's Sambal Pau in Aba's Hand. Haha.. and still on the train Time: somewhere after subuh as well.














Ok.. Kinda ugly this shot, but anyway.. That'd be fadhilah and Me. Hahha.. Not ready to smile but then "KACHEEEEKK".. shot taken.














All the four ladies! hahah.. our beloved 'Queen' is too tired though..














Aba and Ummi.. ^_________^














Fadhilah:"HEY! dont take from above larh! looks stupid!" Basirah:"Ah? Hihihihhihihih!!"
Zahidah: "Shut up and just smile".
Result: natural candid.















On the way home.. and Well.. at the side is just me.. taking my nap!


There are alot more.. buuuuuuuut! I'm too lazy to upload all. So.. be sufficient with what I have uploaded. And from this trip.. I could conclude three things.. Important things that is,

1)Taking Train (second class) is not advisable. You may give it a try though. Lessons learnt from my experience: Once is enough.
2) Try spend more time over there, if possible. My Trip was kinda short and we missed quite alot of places acutally. Now I feel like going back again.
3)Be Physically Ready to take the bus home when arriving Singapore, if arrival is by coach bus. There might be NOT A SINGLE TAXI AVAILABLE at where the coach drop you.


So that's it!
Ila Huna.. ma'Assalamah!

Tawakkal 'Ala Allah..

Assalamualaikum....

Today was a hot day.. now it's much much. The sun was Scorching HOT.. Hmm.. and Luckily.. I could end my class early Today!! hahah.. I get to return home early larh.. Which is actually quite rare for me, after working for almost 6 months there.

Alhamdulillah..


well.. now, Let's see.. OH YEAH! Tuffahah will be having lunch cum gathering at International Family Buffet!!.. Yum YuuuMM.. can't wait!! I am so looking forward to the desserts.. Hahha..!

Insya'Allah as well.. I'll be going to KL from tomorrow night till sunday night. We'll get a few things that we need over there. But.. I've read that.. KL is.. flooded?? hmmm.. I have no idea, but since the train tickets are bought, let's just go ahead with our plan.

Insya'Allah Khair.. everything will be smooth.

Alright.. about going out together with my friends.. I really dont know how and when. There's a bliss when everyone had found a job.. but the hateful part is that.............. IT'S SO HARD TO SEE EACH OTHER NOW!. HMPh..

I'm going in less than 4 weeks now.. so.. I leave this to fate.

And speaking of my departure to Syria.. I do feel some part of the lonliness and oddity already. Haha.. and plus some worry.

What will happen to this household eh? who will replace the vacancy of the 'Assisstant Maid'?

Who will vacumm and fold the laundries.. and well.. just practically clean the house?

Hmm.. I just hope It wont JUST BE MY MOTHER ALONE. That'll be soooooo.. shameful.

I dont know.. but to just Tawakkal. I do what EVER that i can now to leave the house spick and span. Who knows what will happen when I'm away. well.. I hope It'll be better!


Anyways.. They'll survive.. and I will too, Insya'Allah.

Anytime when YOU see me being weak, please remind me that I HAVE TO BE STRONG!.

I just sometimes forget this thing..


Ila Huna.. Wassalam.

What they know is only what they see and perceive to be,

My truth is buried deep in my chest,

Of what is hidden and burning in my heart..

Who could ever find out.. or disclose it into an explainable code

Who?.. but Him.


I smile as a sign of unhurt,

I love as a sign of humanity,

I have numbed the self from hatred and revenge,

I know tiredness and pain,

But I know what not to let go.


When it’s becoming too comfortable,

I have to move.

When it’s becoming too happy,

I have to learn pain.

When it’s not becoming me,

I must change.

And when the heart is determined,

I have to follow.

Fi Amanillah.. Ma'asslamah

Be Strong to become Stronger just to be with The Strongest.

Assalamualaikum..

Alright.. the Title seems ridiculous, laugh all you want. But that has a deep meaning to me.. so.. let it be.

Nothing much happen lately.. except for extreme weariness and constant sleepyness. Urgh.. Holiday week means extra work for me. PhEw.. I am working hard right now.

I've been asked of how to control anger. Arh well.. I dont rally know. For me, the sign of anger is silence. And this silence is a killing Silence. The kind that wont breath a word.

That would be My reaction to my own anger.. but according to Hadith I have read, it(anger) is the sweetest thing that anyone could swallow, sweeter than Honey.

If my memory serves me well, we are asked to not vent our anger.

Well that's it. Anger management by Zahidah. Hahahha.. (mcm iye iye je..)



Alright.. I'm trying to do something for my closed ones.. just so that I wont be forgotten. X< Will I be forgotten..? or worst.. Would I forget anyone..?!

ARGH!!.. of course not.. I'm still within the globe right?.. It's not as if I'm travelling to the moon. hahhahah...

There has been this cepuk emas question. " How do you feel about going to Syria..?"

and for that cepuk emas question.. the answer is " I dont know, excited I guess"

hmm.. I really dont know what to expect!. If i could forsee, I want to see the place that I'll spend for the next of my 3-5 years.. Insya Allah.

What I'm worried is that I wont be able to reach there. nauzubillah..

Please Pray (doa) for me.. All I want is my journey and everything be smooth and managable. I'm ready for some hicups on the way.. but not the super BIG ones that could affect my journey.

lastly..

Kenanglah daku dalam Doa mu.

Assalamualaikum.. I wish everyone to be in a Good health and the best of condition. Insya'Allah.

Arh.. I'm fine now.. really fine. I have a lot to write about.. but can't really determine of where to start. Hahah..

Well.. firstly I can start with the Bosses' verdict on their newly painted school. Thank God.. They liked it. Hamdan Lillah. Our hard work was somewhat paid off.. arh.. well.. at least I feel that way. hahah. It's not that I get extra pay this month.. just that.. when they entered with a smile and mentioned parts and corners that they liked.. I felt grateful. It wasnt all useless effort. hahah.
So.. I thank those who came down to give a hand. From the brothers of the teachers and her husband to the student who came too. The work wouldnt be completed if it isnt for you guys and girls. hahah.. (do i sound like i'm the boss?? arh well.. I am really grateful.. because if i was the 'brother' or the 'husband' or even the student, I dont think I'd come down; I'm a bad person.. yeah I know).

It was good to know people closer and better.. eh???

Well.. secondly.. what I can say is that.. I might be flying off earlier than I said I would. I remembered telling some closed ones that my flight'd be on 19th of July.. but it was somewhat confirmed that it'll be on the 13th of July. One week earlier. OOPPS..!! I think Fathanah would explode or........................ kill me if i break this to her. Hahha.. so how??? should I tell??

maybe I'll get her to read this entry eh. Not everything has to come out from my mouth.. right?! let the fingers do the talking.


And Thirdly.. which is the least important; I am getting more and more attached with Tuffahah; yeah that place where I'm working now. I am beginning to really really like the place. Back then it was only a small feeling of attachment. but now.. after going through alot together.. including.. the painting, I have this great feeling that I'll miss the whole place tremendously!
Do I still have the chance to teach there if I leave this month?? or will it be just a place for me to pay a visit in the future. HuuuHhuuuHuuuuuu... HOW SAD!

*change of topic*

Turthfully.. I am really tired right now. SUPer TiRED! but.. cant really show it. Let me just rest and till here now..

Ma'assalamah~