knowledge can be lost..
when I read again my older posts, i have spot another difference in me. I was more knowlegeble than I am now. I dont know.. but that I think of myself now. I share so many things back then, but now.. I wonder. what do i have in my brain to share will anyone.
maybe Im thinking more about growing up and life.. that I miss the important part. I have always love to read.. and nowadays.. whatever that I read.. I will just keep it to myself. How i wish I could share them again. I bought a book on 'kisah teladan'- or stories that has its lesson to be learnt. It's 1001 stories.. hahha up till now.. I have only read a few pages.. which I dont know if i sill do remember them or not.
I hate to lose what I used to know.. and I hate to know that I have forgotten what I used to know. I am a bad person.. so bad. what kind of a teacher I am.. I dont know. Sometimes I pity my students having to listen to my boring lessons.
again and again I am trying to improve myself.. in terms of speech.. language.. knowledge especially.. but there will be times when I get nervous and EVERYTHING will be messed up. I am no longer a teacher for JUST primary students.. I am teaching SECONDARY studnts.. both the madrasah and from goverment school.. and I am teaching as POLY AND UNIVERSITY students.
dont that add up to the pressure..? YES it does..
but I am trying not to get them be the wall to what I want to teach and share. I am open to whatever questions that they wish to ask about. I will listen and answer the best I can. In fact, I am trying to make them MY MOTIVATION and DRIVE towards teaching them enthusiastically.. with love and patience.
do I love them? Yes I do.. even though before every class I will get whole bunch of butterflies in my stomach that makes me go to the toilet. YEs.. that kind of a nervous.
Oh Allah.. please guide me. let me teach them with the best knowledge possible in the best way possible for them to understand. It is only from You I can trust for guidance and more knowledge and courage. AMIN!
maybe Im thinking more about growing up and life.. that I miss the important part. I have always love to read.. and nowadays.. whatever that I read.. I will just keep it to myself. How i wish I could share them again. I bought a book on 'kisah teladan'- or stories that has its lesson to be learnt. It's 1001 stories.. hahha up till now.. I have only read a few pages.. which I dont know if i sill do remember them or not.
I hate to lose what I used to know.. and I hate to know that I have forgotten what I used to know. I am a bad person.. so bad. what kind of a teacher I am.. I dont know. Sometimes I pity my students having to listen to my boring lessons.
again and again I am trying to improve myself.. in terms of speech.. language.. knowledge especially.. but there will be times when I get nervous and EVERYTHING will be messed up. I am no longer a teacher for JUST primary students.. I am teaching SECONDARY studnts.. both the madrasah and from goverment school.. and I am teaching as POLY AND UNIVERSITY students.
dont that add up to the pressure..? YES it does..
but I am trying not to get them be the wall to what I want to teach and share. I am open to whatever questions that they wish to ask about. I will listen and answer the best I can. In fact, I am trying to make them MY MOTIVATION and DRIVE towards teaching them enthusiastically.. with love and patience.
do I love them? Yes I do.. even though before every class I will get whole bunch of butterflies in my stomach that makes me go to the toilet. YEs.. that kind of a nervous.
Oh Allah.. please guide me. let me teach them with the best knowledge possible in the best way possible for them to understand. It is only from You I can trust for guidance and more knowledge and courage. AMIN!
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