light on.. light out.

if I was turned into any kind of dish, I will be the taste of : Sweet and Sour

if I was a rainbow myself.. my seven colours would be: pastel pink, bright pink, green, blue, black, maroon and dark purple.

if i was a fruit: Raspberry

if I was part of the sky.. I'd like to be the clouds.

if I was part of the sea.. I'd like to be the depth.

if I was part of a song.. I'd like to be the words.





what does this all mean?


hahah nothing I guess. just that thought came when I was waiting for my mother just now. I want to ride a hotair balloon now.


hahah WEIRD!


bye. enjoy the rest of the day. =)


fi Amanillah

knowledge can be lost..

when I read again my older posts, i have spot another difference in me. I was more knowlegeble than I am now. I dont know.. but that I think of myself now. I share so many things back then, but now.. I wonder. what do i have in my brain to share will anyone.

maybe Im thinking more about growing up and life.. that I miss the important part. I have always love to read.. and nowadays.. whatever that I read.. I will just keep it to myself. How i wish I could share them again. I bought a book on 'kisah teladan'- or stories that has its lesson to be learnt. It's 1001 stories.. hahha up till now.. I have only read a few pages.. which I dont know if i sill do remember them or not.

I hate to lose what I used to know.. and I hate to know that I have forgotten what I used to know. I am a bad person.. so bad. what kind of a teacher I am.. I dont know. Sometimes I pity my students having to listen to my boring lessons.

again and again I am trying to improve myself.. in terms of speech.. language.. knowledge especially.. but there will be times when I get nervous and EVERYTHING will be messed up. I am no longer a teacher for JUST primary students.. I am teaching SECONDARY studnts.. both the madrasah and from goverment school.. and I am teaching as POLY AND UNIVERSITY students.

dont that add up to the pressure..? YES it does..

but I am trying not to get them be the wall to what I want to teach and share. I am open to whatever questions that they wish to ask about. I will listen and answer the best I can. In fact, I am trying to make them MY MOTIVATION and DRIVE towards teaching them enthusiastically.. with love and patience.


do I love them? Yes I do.. even though before every class I will get whole bunch of butterflies in my stomach that makes me go to the toilet. YEs.. that kind of a nervous.


Oh Allah.. please guide me. let me teach them with the best knowledge possible in the best way possible for them to understand. It is only from You I can trust for guidance and more knowledge and courage. AMIN!

Words

i notice the difference now..

I used to talk alot. both with my mouth and my 'finger'. i've looked through my past years entries.. and well.. I do express alot back then. Now.. it seems that my life is somewhat boring, i think and observe quietly. or perhaps it's just that as we get older we just bottle it inside. What the world knows or thinks.. doesnt really matter.

Life. Im moving with it .. and Insya'Allah Im doing great. every now and then there will be this source of inspiration.. the source or my smile.. to bring smile to the other. I dont want to forget to smile..but at times.. yes I do.

why?. Being this person who doesnt express much feels so heavier. It seems that I have forgooten the words of my heart.. or have I really?

share.share. share. Yes.. I want to share my own thoughts.. opinion.. ideas. they are trapped.. in a form that I cant exlain or just lay it into words. So i Just keep my silence. whatever words that comes out.. are just what I can lay out.

yes wait.
let's wait for another day.
how can we drop whatever hope we've been holding on.
Yes.. I tell you.
we wait.
maybe tomorrow we'll be in another land..
maybe seperated.
but please remember this
even when you're alone
He will come.
we just wait.
I hold your hand as long as I can..
but even when I am not..
dont give up.
remember me. remember us. remember Him.

PAWAA! (power)

even if just one person believes..

there's a possibily it can happen.

Truth or not.. it's another question.

The belief comes first.




forever and ever.. I want to believe in you. no matter what happens. I promise that.







when we say something.. it means that it is something we want it to be heard of.

normal people.. wont say something that they dont mean to.



that's it.