my good old days.

They are seemingly coming back. Those days that I thought I have left. It's back.. in this new life Im living. one by one. I dont know how.. but since it's back. I'll just share it.

Want to smile

To disguise the tears that are falling

Nod head

Admit to myself that I will be scared of the dark

I only seek

That you can lend some time to be with me

But you don't even give sympathy

Want to cryTo find out whether I am numb yet

The whole worldSeems like I am the only one who is tired

Doesn't matterAnyway I'm feeling sad so I'll muddle through and go for a time

If only despair and feeling useless would go far away

The sky is very greyWill itLet me forget who you are?

The darker the night

Dream disobeys

It is hard to chase and hard to enjoy in retrospect

My world is going to be destroyed

Maybe things do not happen as I wish

Tired or not?

Sleep or not?

A single shadow with no one to snuggle with

The darker the night

Dream disobeys

Who is willing to comfort?

My world is going to be destroyed

Maybe being dispirited is another kind of beauty.

A song by Jay chou. shi jie mo ri. The end of the world. I remember myself humming to this song while I was in secondary three. I never heard of the song, yet when I hummed it, It felt farmiliar to me. I search through but didnt find it. only after months later that I found this song and it's words.

now.. im listening to it again. I am trying to find my spirit again.

:D