HAppInEsS aT EverY TurN

This is from what I see and feel..

27th of April..

It was one kind of closeness that I never felt..

A kind of family-like feeling that I've been missing..

even though I was busy with my task..

I didnt miss the wonderful atmosphere that day.

Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

plus.. everyone was soooo handsomely and stunningly well dressed. What a sight I miss now.

and at the end of the day.. it was all satisfying. Masya Allah.

perhaps others find it otherwise on that day..

but it's one of my happy experience I've had here.

Thank u guys and ladies for making it a day for me to remember.



Exam has ended.. but not our friendships.

Fathanah is going crazy.. because no school.. almost seems like no life for her.

and Guys and Fath and mas.. and myself.. GOOD LUCK WITH THE RESULTS.

only Allah witnessed how much effort we put to strive in order to get good marks.. so dont regret over any kind of mistakes or stupid answers u've given. That's it for now.. Allah will know what to return for our efforts.





so.. basically.. It's happiness at every turn for me. HAMDAN LILLAH.

Too Carried Away..

Terlalu aku Ikutkan nafsu..

Telalu aku Asyik dengan Kerja keduniaan..

Terlalu aku ikutkan Perasaan..

Hingga Terlajak aku dari Landasan.

Skrg rase aku Tamparan Dari Tuhan..

Terlalu kesal Untuk aku Ungkitkan..

Terlalu malu Untuk Ku mohon Keampunan.




You know.. when u're drifted away with things that are only to carry u away from who u are.. All the stoopid sinful mistakes start to mark in ur everyday life.

I admit.. Yes.. I am wrong and drenched with sins. How do I atone to all these mistakes.. I dont know. It's not my Power..

anytime when I stray away from u.. please dont take it to heart. I just want to protect you from the sins that could ruin u like they ruined me. I hope can understand this.



Adakah ini ujian??.. atau balasan..??

mungkin tak perlu aku fikirkan..

hanya perlu ku perbetulkan segala kesalahan.

Ya Allah.. tunjukkanlah aku tika aku terlepas..

Lindungilah aku tika aku terlupa..

terlalu jahil dan lemah diri aku..

tujukan lah hati aku hanya untuk Mu.

tidak ada kasih dan rahmat lain ku perlukan.. kecuali DariMU.






Maybe it's time that I REALLY wake myself up. I've SLEPT ENOUGH!


SMACK RIGHT TO UR FACE ZAHIDAH!

TranSfoRmer ZaHIdah!!

Ahh.. Relieved..


Hey.. I am Fat and Black Now!! khehe.. happy??

the weather has done great to my skin that now I have 3 colour tone to my face. hahah.. not even any alien has that. =.=

plus.. I have unintentionally incresed the fleshes to my body.. and I am now fat!.. ^^

heheh.. and nope! I am not being negative.. I can accept the Reality... WHOLEHEARTEDLY! ^_______________^

and if i look it at the birghter side.. hmm.. it shows that how happy I've been! ne? hahha..


yes yes yes.. I am happy. for so many many many reasons.


Alhamdulillah.. the sky is clearer now.

maybe when u're fat.. u're happier??

ahhh!! FOOD JOY!! ^^ yumyumyum..

salam.. ^^


I am back to my normal crazy schedule after a week ++ of holidays. Hamdanlillah.. I'm still good and haPPY! and today I am EspeCiaLlY happY.. because of what i wear. ahahha... I know it's stupid.. but after quite a long time I didnt wear anything white.. and today when I see myself in White Tudung it makes me so HappY. not too sure exactly why.. but it does make me feel refreshing.. ^^

never really cared what i wear.. but I think from today on.. I shall match whatever that I wear with my mood. Like how fathanah would wear her colors.. maybe i should be same.. even when our color tones are different.

Ni mungkin semangat 5 minit je..khehhe ^^

just a few things to help me 'adjust' and 'repair' my everyday moods. ^^

best kan putih!!


arh.. that's all. ^^ khehhehehe..

rain rain.. go away.

adek.. u want something positive ekh from me??

well.. here it is..

Only Allah knows how happy and relieved I am.

everything is ok at home.. hamdanlillah..


okok.. aba.. i know.. dont worry.. okok.. i wont worry.. kakak blaja je.. ok.. kakak blaja.



ummi!.. PereMPUAN MESTI KUAT!..


and friends.. sorry if i shocked any of you when i cried this morning in classroom. so so so terribly sorry. I looked so awful and swollen.. so sorry. I know.. it's already ugly enough when i dont cry.. so.. it bacame monstrous when i cried. so sorry.

I PROMISE!.. I wont cry anymore after this!!



dah dah.. bye. is this positive enough for u adek??

a test for this bloody sinful girl..

no one knows how desperate I am now..

especially this COmPuter!.. Hmph!.. naseb baik kau tk bernyawa..



A news came last night broke my heart but I know I cant do anything.

How I wish to be by her side now........


arhh.. see?? I'm wishing for the impossible again. =.=


and since I am so helpless now.. and at the end of my mind thinking of what I could do..

I hope this entry is enough for me to vent and pour all my anger and feelings.. =.=

Ummi!!! jage diri arh... mmg arh hosp best.. tp kalau pegi as visitor arh!! jgn saket2 arh..


I hate this feeling of being helpless..


I know I am able.. but I cant..


warrgh!!

I.. if were given somekind of a power..

or given a chance to make an impossible wish..

I'd wish Syria and Singapore were neigbours.

Yes..


then I wouldnt have to crack my head and heart thinking about leaving this place.


and if ever I have to leave this place.. this year.. or the year after.. i know I wont be back.

and that really really hurts.



ah.. see..?! I am crying again.. thanks to brahim.. HmPh..!

I know I wont forget any ONE of you. even if I try.. I know I cant.


and That's all I feel like saying.. coz.. I have this feeling that I will soon leave this place.. even before I know. I hate hate hate this feeling.

and If one could scan or give an x tray to my heart.. u'll see that It's hugging strongly to everyone whom I see everyday and who are close to me and those I'm missing.


BIG HUUUUGG!!

all around..

Fathanah say..


"cube kurang pikir"

"cube ralax"

"dudok betol2"

"berbual zaida.. jgn pekik"

"kau mcm gini sbb otak kau hyperactive sgnt"

"hati dgn otak kau tu tgh tk betol.."

"kau amcm?"

"kau ok tk?"

"cube dudok diam2.."

"Pegi mane plak ni??"

"ni semue penyakit perempuan.."

"kau ckp kau tk pikir.. tp die ade dlm otk kau.."

"kau ckp tk suke.. tp.. hati kate lain.."

"kau ckp lain dari ape dlm kat otak kau"

"otak kau cepat dari mate kau bergerak.."


Shahirah says:

"kau boleh tipu aku.. tp kau tkle tipu diri sendiri"

"MEMEKAK!"

Kak Dja says

"Doa bnyk2"

"Zaida dgn shahirah ni.. aku dah tk tau ape aku nak buat dgn dorang.. nak sepak je dedue.."


and myself says

"PEREMPUAN MESTI KUAT!"