Drama of the Weighing Scale..

so here goes..



the moment when the weighing scale touched 60...My thought went...




"I AM FAT!!!.." I couldnt accept it. It was too harsh the reality for me to accept that I'm 60kG.. so much so the drama.. I rolled on the floor..



I felt.. so FAT.. I couldnt take it. I break my OWN RECORD.. I felt my leg were 3 shawarmas together.. my hands were like sandwich batatah.

So much of the sadness that.. i decided to do something to myself.


I tried to recall all the things that I've done to myself.. and thus thE MAIN point Struck me..

"you have left all the things that u used to do back then.. zahidah!"

which was true.. I'm becoming lesser and lesser myself.

Thus.. I picked myself up and decided to pray.. Isya' (coz it was getting late)


after the prayer and deep suplication...

Atiqah and Ewin were discussing about gaining weight in my room..

"ARgh! How depressing!!"

YEah yeah.. I've gained 8 kg!! so wat??

then Ewin moved the weighing scale from the thick carpet to the cold hard floor..

"I dont think u're 60 Kg zaida.." Ewin said. ( at that point of time.. I thought she was trying to make me feel better)

"Come see!.. Try weighing again.." she said.. and i reluctantly obeyed..

"Ewin.. weighing scale dont lie.. This is MY third time eh.. It'll still fall to 60!!"

ANd like Miracle...

the scale touched 55 and then moved abit.. to 56.

arrhhh!!! my whole world is back in place!!! I'm still within my own limit..

Phewww....~

after all the drama in front of the girls............... I'm still normal. hahahah..

BUT!!..

getting myself controled is my quest NOW..

I have to watch EVERY SINGLE THING that I eat, say, do.. blablabla.. so on and so forth..

every single BIT of it..

lest the scale wont touch 60..

and before anything bad happed to myself..

I'd rather watch myself NOW.

My iman-o-metre and self- supervision camera are now operating every single minute and second.

BUt in CASE These machines in my System are down..

Please Do Tell me If ThEre'S anyThing Wrong That I'm DOINg.. tell me.. Inform me!!


but the mystery of my weight becoming different from the carpet to the hard floor.. is yet to be solved..

and who knows... maybe Allah wanted to give me a test of the moment.

There are Blessing in everything...




Fi AmaniLLah.